The effects of ADD mingled with workload.

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Fall break has come and gone. Four days of glorious freedom, biking to Amherst, having picnics, and driving half the Smith sci-fi club to Salvation Army so they could get Halloween and LARPing costumes. Okay, it had its ups and downs (a couple of really foul moods mixed in there), but it was really nice to escape my homework for a while.

Of course now I have to pay the piper, work-wise. So there I was this morning, eating a cold lunch in my study carrel in the library as I wrote out my Greek homework, and my brain rebelled. Fuck this, I thought suddenly as I looked longingly out the window. Fuck Greek, fuck the applications of Fermat's Little Theorem, fuck the computer game I have to write and the fifty-page French paper I'm supposed to have outlined by Monday. Fuck words, I am going to run away and become a truck driver.

And then I went to Greek, and barely restrained the urge to make smartass comments to the teacher while she was up to her usual incompetent tricks, and when I got back to my study carrel the immediate urge to jump out the window and spend my life on the road had faded somewhat... but my desire to do math proofs is still nil.

Somebody please rescue my motivation, it vanished sometime this weekend.