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tenlittlebullets) wrote2006-02-23 05:33 pm
tenlittlebullets) wrote2006-02-23 05:33 pm
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* Did you know that, including time for rest stops and getting lost, it takes ten hours to drive from New Hampshire to Washington, DC? I discovered this fun little fact last night, after I exited the gas station in Salem at four PM.
* Got a prescription for Adderall. Finally.
* I have noticed something disturbing. It's perfectly natural that all my Enjolras/Grantaire plotbunnies involve them being highly dysfunctional and the fics turn out dark to some degree. But I realized sometime last night that every single one of them is not only dark, it either involves or alludes to nonconsensual or dubiously consensual sex. Not just the ones I've posted, but all the ones running around in my head too. Lingering abuse trauma, R taking advantage of drunk E!, blackmail for sexual favors, sex whether R wants it or not--it was completely unintentional but it just keeps coming back and it's scaring me a bit. XD It's like, not only can I not wrap my mind around them being in a happy relationship, I can't even wrap my mind around them willingly shagging one another. It's not a personal kink or a preoccupation, and it only crops up for this specific pairing. It's bizarre.
* If I promised to send you a cast recording and haven't yet, it's not because I hate you, it's because I've been rather busy the past couple days and last time I tried YouSendIt it broke on me.
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puddleduck3, I GOT YOUR PACKAGE. *glomps* You're amazing. Thank you so much. *squeeeeeeees*
* Got a prescription for Adderall. Finally.
* I have noticed something disturbing. It's perfectly natural that all my Enjolras/Grantaire plotbunnies involve them being highly dysfunctional and the fics turn out dark to some degree. But I realized sometime last night that every single one of them is not only dark, it either involves or alludes to nonconsensual or dubiously consensual sex. Not just the ones I've posted, but all the ones running around in my head too. Lingering abuse trauma, R taking advantage of drunk E!, blackmail for sexual favors, sex whether R wants it or not--it was completely unintentional but it just keeps coming back and it's scaring me a bit. XD It's like, not only can I not wrap my mind around them being in a happy relationship, I can't even wrap my mind around them willingly shagging one another. It's not a personal kink or a preoccupation, and it only crops up for this specific pairing. It's bizarre.
* If I promised to send you a cast recording and haven't yet, it's not because I hate you, it's because I've been rather busy the past couple days and last time I tried YouSendIt it broke on me.
*
puddleduck3, I GOT YOUR PACKAGE. *glomps* You're amazing. Thank you so much. *squeeeeeeees*