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tenlittlebullets) wrote2006-03-08 11:32 pm
tenlittlebullets) wrote2006-03-08 11:32 pm
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Meds are good for me. Meds are very good for me. But through a strange mixup with the pharmacy I went back to school with only regular Adderall and no XR, and the regular ones last maybe three hours before I crash and burn. I mean, I can take them serially, but it gives this nasty peak-and-valley effect and when it dumps me out I get tired and fantastically bitchy. And I mope and I say stupid things and I stare helplessly at my mounds of homework. Which I would be able to do, honestly, if this week hadn't been completely eaten by rehearsals. Monday? Two and a half hours of time not taken up by class or rehearsal. Tuesday? Slept most of the day to make up for the craptastically sleepless weekend. Tonight? Three hours of free time, mostly used to try to learn "Non so più." Hopefully I'll be able to get stuff done tomorrow but Friday and Saturday are UGH. *punches things* I have all this music to learn, two or three papers to write, a term paper to start researching, and all these impossible Arabic translations that involve our impossible dictionary. While I'm not in rehearsals or performing or tutoring freshmen in German or practicing piano and voice and violin.
So, um, if I disappear from the internet for a few days and reappear intermittently to be a royal jackass... that's why. Hopefully I'll get the longer-lasting meds sent to me soon and I won't have such nasty mood swings, and hopefully I'll get the homework out of the way and actually have time to be online.
Meds are good for me. Meds are very good for me. But through a strange mixup with the pharmacy I went back to school with only regular Adderall and no XR, and the regular ones last maybe three hours before I crash and burn. I mean, I can take them serially, but it gives this nasty peak-and-valley effect and when it dumps me out I get tired and fantastically bitchy. And I mope and I say stupid things and I stare helplessly at my mounds of homework. Which I would be able to do, honestly, if this week hadn't been completely eaten by rehearsals. Monday? Two and a half hours of time not taken up by class or rehearsal. Tuesday? Slept most of the day to make up for the craptastically sleepless weekend. Tonight? Three hours of free time, mostly used to try to learn "Non so più." Hopefully I'll be able to get stuff done tomorrow but Friday and Saturday are UGH. *punches things* I have all this music to learn, two or three papers to write, a term paper to start researching, and all these impossible Arabic translations that involve our impossible dictionary. While I'm not in rehearsals or performing or tutoring freshmen in German or practicing piano and voice and violin.
So, um, if I disappear from the internet for a few days and reappear intermittently to be a royal jackass... that's why. Hopefully I'll get the longer-lasting meds sent to me soon and I won't have such nasty mood swings, and hopefully I'll get the homework out of the way and actually have time to be online.