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[tenlittlebullets]

I just went back and reread the past few months' worth of my LJ, and found two particular things about it very striking:

1. Sudden period of mid-August productivity--coding, fic, translations, meta, etc--followed by a solid month of boring, whiny personal/RL posts. I realized that was happening, but seeing it written down on LJ reinforces how drastic it was. Like a switch got flipped in my brain. What happened? And how can I get it back?

2. I have been clinging to my sanity by my fingernails for longer than I'd realized.

I'm okay at the moment--it was bad earlier in the week, but it turned out I had some bug that was going around the house and that's why I'd been struggling to drag myself out of bed in the morning and do basic things. Baseline energy levels were back yesterday morning, and the contrast was so huge that I went on a manic cleaning spree and bounced around the house singing. On the other hand, being back on the computer is making that heavy feeling in the pit of my stomach come back, which is an eminently bad thing, and as soon as this post is written I will probably shut it off and go read more of Anathem.

Now that I've realized how out-of-control and navel-gazing the personal posts were getting, I will try to rein them in and get back to talking about things that are interesting.

Comments

[coloneldespard.livejournal.com]

They never came across as navel gazing, if that helps - it was just clear that you were/are going through a rough patch. I'm always interested in the meta and research centric posts, but you shouldn't feel obliged to post those if what you feel the need to write *is* personal!

[collectingbees.livejournal.com]

You shouldn't feel bad about posting things that you may find personal and not fandom related. Your LiveJournal friends are interested in you, too, not just the incredibly profound and articulate things you have to say about fandom. I mean, the posts never, ever came across to me as whining or navel gazing.

[theplushiegirl.livejournal.com]

This is random, but I found a bunch of little old books by Victor Hugo in my school's language department with a "free" sign, so I nabbed them. Seeing as I don't speak French, would you be interested in them? (like you need any more books, but still XD) I can get you the titles tomorrow when I'm more awake.

Also agreeing with the other posters- write what you want to, how you feel, whatever. It's your journal, we just happen to read it occasionally. Write what you want/need to, we'll stick around even if it's boring (cause the interesting stuff is really fun!) :P