Ten Little Chances to be Free (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
tenlittlebullets) wrote2004-10-12 04:35 pm
tenlittlebullets) wrote2004-10-12 04:35 pm
(no subject)
I feel... numb. Dull. Almost catatonic. Was taken to the orthodontist today; stared straight ahead, let myself be manhandled around, spoke in monosyllables, and even then only when I absolutely had to say something. Mental standby. Want to sleep forever, or at least sit staring at a wall without my brother's fucking annoying music playing all the time.
I should be happy, dammit. Came out to my dad last night and he was all accepting and crap, a little weirded out, but by the time we were all ready for bed he was making a big list of male bonding activities we never really did when I was a kid. So I should be happy and thankful and eagerly anticipating learning how to do drag race starts in a Corvette (which would be really fun if I had any energy at all--I've driven that car once and it's awesome) but instead I'm just blank and numb.
Mmneh make it all go away.
I should be happy, dammit. Came out to my dad last night and he was all accepting and crap, a little weirded out, but by the time we were all ready for bed he was making a big list of male bonding activities we never really did when I was a kid. So I should be happy and thankful and eagerly anticipating learning how to do drag race starts in a Corvette (which would be really fun if I had any energy at all--I've driven that car once and it's awesome) but instead I'm just blank and numb.
Mmneh make it all go away.