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tenlittlebullets) wrote2005-06-03 03:40 am
tenlittlebullets) wrote2005-06-03 03:40 am
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Mrrrr. I've been talking fanfiction a lot lately, haven't I? Pity I haven't written any--maybe I need Adderall after all, because I want to write quite a bit but I simply can't get it out on the page. The ideas are there, but I can't focus enough to get them into words. Perhaps I should spew a few of them into a LiveJournal post.
So, I present the Grand List of Things I Really Want To Do With Fanfiction
- Write a gigantic, novel-length Tom Riddle fic. It's been eating away at me ever since I read Chamber of Secrets, and I've always been a little annoyed with JKR for making Voldemort so... flat. In the early stage of my HP fannishness I wrote several short stories based around the concept, only one of which I ever finished, as well as an outline for a long fic that I probably would've murdered if I'd tried to write it. Perhaps it's just the Star Wars obsession reigniting, but something inside me is saying "If George Lucas can make Darth Vader into a sympathetic character, you can bloody well do it to Voldemort!"
- Write a gigantic, novel-length OC-based fic with a strict no-Sue policy. My first HP fic was one of same, and although it was horribly written I wouldn't consider the lead character a Mary Sue. I've been kicking around lately in fandoms that don't support epics too well--namely Phantom and various only-in-it-for-the-smut RPS fandoms--but the HP and SW universes lend themselves well to such fics, so I've been toying with the idea of either reviving and reworking that first HP fic or writing an OC-based Star Wars fic.
- Indulge my morbid squicky side, just once or twice. The two unfinished Morbidity Contest fics don't really count, but a lot of the death imagery surrounding Erik and his sexuality has lodged in my brain and produced urges to write things like coffin sex, and Erik-as-living-corpse smut, and necrophiliac Erik. Not to mention I'd like to see the horrified reactions I'd get from certain... factions within the Phantom fandom if/when I posted it. The shitty thing about this fandom is that there's so much weird stuff to explore in fanfiction, but everyone's too busy making sure Erik has a One Twoo Wuv to poke around in it and see what rises to the surface. We need more weird experimental stuff and more horror-themed stories, IMO, things like 'Mirrors' and the Scorpion's fics and this wonderful Christine/Meg story I found and lost that grabbed hold of Christine's Elektra complex and ran with it.
- Write really disturbing RPS pairings for the sheer fuckassery of it. RPS makes me feel dirty. Writing RPS about bands I really like that don't have any slash written about them makes me feel absolutely filthy. Unfortunately for some people's delicate sensibilities, it is the filthiness of the kid who just rolled in a mud puddle in his new clothes: I know I really shouldn't, but it's so much fun. In a 'whose buttons can I press with this' sort of way.
- Write (or think about writing, since I never seem to write anymore) more gen fic. Okay, hormones, it's been a fun ride, but I'd rather get more out of my fandoms than 'who can I slash next?' and 'oooh, smut.' I think this is tied to the resurgence of the desire to write a giant epic; the squicky points above are just things I need to expel from my system before I get on to more productive writing. One of the giant epic plotlines would probably require romance at some point, but as a plot device, not as an end in itself, which is fine. Maybe my present writers' block is just because I suck the big egg at writing romance as an end in itself, and that's what all this slash and smut has been. Just get it out of my system.
- Write a tragedy. Who have been the characters I've attached myself to? Tom Riddle. Erik. Anakin. Their lives up until the canon plot started were invariably tragedies--Anakin's has been told in canon, Erik's in the shadowy Kay realm of published fanon, and Tom's hasn't been told outside of fanfic archives, but they all started out with the potential to be good people and were warped beyond recognition. In any case, I do want to write a tragedy. I want to make my readers love my character. I want to set him up inexorably for a fall that nobody predicted but that couldn't have been avoided. I want to hold people's hearts in my hand and crush them before my eyes; I want to make someone cry over something I've written. I don't know if I can pull that off, but I'd certainly like to try.
Sorry for the ramblyness. It did clear my head a bit.
So, I present the Grand List of Things I Really Want To Do With Fanfiction
- Write a gigantic, novel-length Tom Riddle fic. It's been eating away at me ever since I read Chamber of Secrets, and I've always been a little annoyed with JKR for making Voldemort so... flat. In the early stage of my HP fannishness I wrote several short stories based around the concept, only one of which I ever finished, as well as an outline for a long fic that I probably would've murdered if I'd tried to write it. Perhaps it's just the Star Wars obsession reigniting, but something inside me is saying "If George Lucas can make Darth Vader into a sympathetic character, you can bloody well do it to Voldemort!"
- Write a gigantic, novel-length OC-based fic with a strict no-Sue policy. My first HP fic was one of same, and although it was horribly written I wouldn't consider the lead character a Mary Sue. I've been kicking around lately in fandoms that don't support epics too well--namely Phantom and various only-in-it-for-the-smut RPS fandoms--but the HP and SW universes lend themselves well to such fics, so I've been toying with the idea of either reviving and reworking that first HP fic or writing an OC-based Star Wars fic.
- Indulge my morbid squicky side, just once or twice. The two unfinished Morbidity Contest fics don't really count, but a lot of the death imagery surrounding Erik and his sexuality has lodged in my brain and produced urges to write things like coffin sex, and Erik-as-living-corpse smut, and necrophiliac Erik. Not to mention I'd like to see the horrified reactions I'd get from certain... factions within the Phantom fandom if/when I posted it. The shitty thing about this fandom is that there's so much weird stuff to explore in fanfiction, but everyone's too busy making sure Erik has a One Twoo Wuv to poke around in it and see what rises to the surface. We need more weird experimental stuff and more horror-themed stories, IMO, things like 'Mirrors' and the Scorpion's fics and this wonderful Christine/Meg story I found and lost that grabbed hold of Christine's Elektra complex and ran with it.
- Write really disturbing RPS pairings for the sheer fuckassery of it. RPS makes me feel dirty. Writing RPS about bands I really like that don't have any slash written about them makes me feel absolutely filthy. Unfortunately for some people's delicate sensibilities, it is the filthiness of the kid who just rolled in a mud puddle in his new clothes: I know I really shouldn't, but it's so much fun. In a 'whose buttons can I press with this' sort of way.
- Write (or think about writing, since I never seem to write anymore) more gen fic. Okay, hormones, it's been a fun ride, but I'd rather get more out of my fandoms than 'who can I slash next?' and 'oooh, smut.' I think this is tied to the resurgence of the desire to write a giant epic; the squicky points above are just things I need to expel from my system before I get on to more productive writing. One of the giant epic plotlines would probably require romance at some point, but as a plot device, not as an end in itself, which is fine. Maybe my present writers' block is just because I suck the big egg at writing romance as an end in itself, and that's what all this slash and smut has been. Just get it out of my system.
- Write a tragedy. Who have been the characters I've attached myself to? Tom Riddle. Erik. Anakin. Their lives up until the canon plot started were invariably tragedies--Anakin's has been told in canon, Erik's in the shadowy Kay realm of published fanon, and Tom's hasn't been told outside of fanfic archives, but they all started out with the potential to be good people and were warped beyond recognition. In any case, I do want to write a tragedy. I want to make my readers love my character. I want to set him up inexorably for a fall that nobody predicted but that couldn't have been avoided. I want to hold people's hearts in my hand and crush them before my eyes; I want to make someone cry over something I've written. I don't know if I can pull that off, but I'd certainly like to try.
Sorry for the ramblyness. It did clear my head a bit.